Ratie Rats

Selamat berpuasa kepada keluarga dan rakan-rakan semuanya, selepas sibuk dengan pilihan raya and after that all works walaupun bukan kerja yang sebenar baru ada masa untuk update my blog, I will made It simple and special. Oh yah, I will not touch about politics in my blog so I will not reply all question about my works on PRU14, thank you very much for your respect.   First thing first, happy fasting everyone! may this Ramadhan will be the best and great Ramadhan in our life. Trying to be the best person in dalam bulan yang sangat suci. This ramadhan will be the best ramadhan to me because, spent all day with my family after almost 3 years im not celebrate ramadhan with family, this is the best gift I had. You know what, there will different having ‘sahur’ and ‘berbuka’ puasa with or without your family. In Ramadhan, having iftar with the family would be the best feeling ever. Mom’s cook, having our siblings by ourside to play around with and the feeling to be at hom...

7:00PM Thursday Sandakan, Sabah This is another prove show us every people do hide real feelings deep inside. We do face problems every single day. Feel sad stressed heartbreak lonely damaged and all harm things obviously can destroyed your main spirit. I wish I can do something to help hm. All I can say is hav faith and stay patient. Do believe Him more than people. He deserve your attention not other, too much stress can ruined your day. Be happy and chill. You deserve better my dear. Don’t feel sad all the time. We still have change to change and move forward for a better future. Don’t chase love because it come naturally. Not now maybe later. Thinking too much is suck. End your day with a broad of smile and be happy for Him. for yourself, for your own sake. Last but not least, do not put your key of happiness to others. They will drop it anytime. Instead keep inside all deep expression, you guys may ask and seek for help. People need you and for sure you...

Hai Assalamualaikum, So hello everyone. It’s been a long time guys, I am back. Taking a long time to heal. One month ago, I was very emotional, stressed with a little things and I cant handle my work. I feel like everyone left me. All alone, but somehow all you need is the strength to pick up the broken pieces of yourselves. Have some self respect. Respect yourself to walk away from things or people that no longer make you happy. If you are unhappy, walk away. Heal everything. You will heal. Your scars to accept the reality and more forward. You can’t stay stuck in the same place, person or even same things. Find your happiness. For once, be selfish, sometimes its will be okay. I wish you guys who reads my blog all the happiness in the world. May Allah ease everything. Amin. Aha, back for why I came back to writing is, I would like to inform that I move again to my hometown. I buy ticket from my own money, I lost everything last month, I lost everything I my life, m...

Its not that i dont want to be happy. its a despite, how hard i try. i cant bring myself to be happy. i feel suffocated, embarrassed, ashamed,, why did i have to be this way? i've a great family, amazing friends, good academic results, on paper everything is okay. Yet all i ever seem to be is sadness and grey it's like there's like burden on me pulling me to the ground and however hard you try you cant bring myself out i cant bring myself to care about anything not me, not him, not her living has become the constant nightmare and its just not fair. Its a disease that affect every aspect of my life, my work, my relationship, my education and to this day despite my best efforts to explain i am always met with blind hesitation. People ask me "Why you always so sad?" i tell them i dont know... what i do know is that i wake up everyday, feeling like absolutely shit and that tha's become my norm. i am afraid of the world, i am...

  Even when i am mad i still think about my other half. Even when i get busy with so many things, i still make time for someone i love. You are so annoying but i cant deny that i love everything about you. Seeing someone i love is what i enjoy the most, but for now all people that i love is being far away from me. even my parents too. so that everytime i see you, i will get nervous. Every single time. Then i get comfortable. Then i get clingy. These three steps. All the time. You are good enough for me.  I cant tell you how much you mean to me because no words can explain that. I love you any less. Loving you is the best thing i've eve done. Yes, i am that kind of person who is obsessed with his space. But i had fun just by your presence. When you are around, i am just content. Seeing your smile forms is just beautiful. You are awkward. Thats beautiful. I saw you crooked teeth. I find that's even more beautiful. You get insecure about your body. I wish i can tell y...

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2018 GUYS I DONT KNOW WHAT IS MY PROBLEM, it always late for wishing in all condition. is it too late for wishing? haha  january almost end. It  saved in my Draft and i forgot to fnishing it. HAHA BUT ITS OKAY. May all your wishes in 2017 comes true and had been successful. Its the time to welcome the new year with a fresh mind and heart. Have a rocking! To Be Honest, 2017 is my year. 2017 full with tears, happiness, sadness, and even lost hope. 2017 is the best year ever. I would like to say thank you. too many memories throughout 2017 are in effect for the returns. Likes, sorrows, laughs, crying, hurt, happy not to remember the world, with the people we love and not with our dear people. Lets throw back a little memory in 2017 (bahasa terabur) : January 2017 - Im back to my hometown Sandakan, Sabah. after a long time not going back. Within 3 weeks I was there. Many memories I made when I was there. Spend some time with family and friends....

"Kekasihku hayati kau yang ku kenal adalah gadis yang sopan,  bunga suci batipuh, kekasih hatiku yang melepasku di hujung jalan. Maafkan saya hayati jika berbicara terus terang, sebab cinta sejati tidak boleh munafik hayati. saya terpuku melihat pakaian mu, begitu hebatnya kau menjadi orang moderen" -  Zainudin. "..dan kekayaan itu belum pernah ku berikan kepada orang lain, walaupun kepada aziz. kekayaan itu ialah kekayaan cinta" - Hayati  "Demikianlah perempuan dia hanya ingat kekejaman orang kepada dirinya walaupun kecil, dan dia lupa kekejamannya sendiri kepada orang lain padahal begitu besarnya." - Zainudin. "Kau lah zainudin yang menjadi suamiku kelak, bila tidak di dunia, kau lah suamiku di akhirat."- Hayati.  "Ini bukanlah perkahwinan harta dan kecantikan" - Hayati.  "mengapa kau jawab aku sekejam itu zainuddin? sudah hilangkah tentang kita dari hatimu? " - Hayati. "kau yang sangg...