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Even when i am mad i still think about my other half. Even when i get busy with so many things, i still make time for someone i love. You are so annoying but i cant deny that i love everything about you. Seeing someone i love is what i enjoy the most, but for now all people that i love is being far away from me. even my parents too. so that everytime i see you, i will get nervous. Every single time. Then i get comfortable. Then i get clingy. These three steps. All the time. You are good enough for me.  I cant tell you how much you mean to me because no words can explain that. I love you any less. Loving you is the best thing i've eve done. Yes, i am that kind of person who is obsessed with his space. But i had fun just by your presence. When you are around, i am just content. Seeing your smile forms is just beautiful. You are awkward. Thats beautiful. I saw you crooked teeth. I find that's even more beautiful. You get insecure about your body. I wish i can tell you more that you are beautfiful inside and out. What's inside is what i cherish. When i am in love, i am addicted with my other half. I crave for their presence. I enjoyed their presence. I had fun seeing them. Thats me. I find myself that tend to forgive what people have done to me because i think people actually can learn from their mistakes. Some of them. I love laughing at your stupid jokes. I love the sound of your laughter. I love to make fun of yourself. Because that's me when i am in love. I understand that you need more attention and time from me but im struggling to juggle with everything. I am trying. I will try my best. I used to have a hole in my heart when i broke up with my ex and now you are slowly filling the hole in my heart and i am forever grateful. Sorry for being with work and my friends. There are many times need a break & chill with friends. But this time i tell myself that i wont give up easily thats why im pretend our relationship no matter whatever. Putting more efforts and patience. 
I love when people respect my feeling and take care of it, sometimes being ego is the only one only choice that we have its not about selfish.. For the past few months, i learnt to live half a live without you by my side. Its not an easy task for me. I miss everything about you. i am struggling a lot. Steeping into 2018, just want to make things easy for myself. I dont want to complicate things. I believe letting things go will make me happy. What i means is not letting go but what i mean is about "reda" when we letting go the things it will be easy for us. Well, there are times i miss so much and i am having hard time to digest what's going on because everything is changing so fast. There are things i dont understand how fast people can changed. Now, we need to love ourselves. Every single thing about ourselves. Our flaws. Our insecurities. We need to accept them  and understand that when we love ourselves better than before, someone will come along the way and love us the way we are. 

Right time at the right moment. 

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