Ratie Rats

Get to know someone is nice. You get to know their hobbies. You get to know their favorite movies. Their favorite food. You get to know what makes them happy and sad at times. You get to know how they handle their anger and sadness and how well they hide their anxiety. You get to know what makes them so passionate with what they are currently doing. And you also let them know things you wanted to know. You also get to know their favorite scents, places and songs. Blessed that i know what yours hobbies and fav movie, even that you don't like watching movie but i blessed pernah berjumpa dengan orang jenis macam kau. I will keep all remember and keep it all in my heart, how's your anger and sadness be like. Thanks because you never give up nak melayan my ego, anger or overreacting. Know when im lying and how i hide my anxiety, all the things that i let you know about me keep it all in your heart. Letting go is not the easier part in our life. Scents? Day by day, you get to kn...

kadang kadang hati kita salah. kawal perasaan dengan akal. i am so done being an option, taken for granted and left broken, & i am in the struggle to unchain myself from being constantly in pain of grieving. i fight for myself this time. i know that i will get better in time. time will eventually heal everything. at some point in life, realize that i am a lover and a fighter. i love too much. i get angry easily and i am working on my anger management. i play, sleep and think too much. but i get my shit done. i don't procrastinate much. music is my best friend. i have too many friends but i realize not everyone is your friend. i am inspired by succesful and hardworking people. as a student, i always remember that i have my parents to impress. my weaknesses are clouds, beach and books. writing is my escapism. and i won't judge your sexuality, decisions, and what you do for living. and i hope you would do the same. i have a thing for kind people. i despise two-fac...

For one last time, I will cry for you. For one last time, I will stop craving for you. For the last time, I will stop making myself miserable for missing you. We are not meant to be. We are just not meant to be. Why the hell I am so stubborn? I should've accept the fact that you are no longer mine. I need a reality check. I should focus on my self-growth. I can't continue being sad like this anymore. It's exhausting. I can't make someone stay in my life if they insist on leaving. I can't make someone love me if they can't accept me anymore. I want to grow as a person. I hope one day when you wake up and find that you are missing me, don't ever find your way back to me. I used to be afraid of losing you and I am losing you. I don't want to be afraid of losing things and people. If it's fated and meant to be, who am I to change my fate? Maybe I don't need anyone to talk. Maybe I just need time to be alone. Maybe I just need my own spac...

She is an independent woman. But at the same time, she wants to be loved. She wants to be treated with care by her beloved ones. She is an independent woman. But at the same time, she wants to be loved. She wants to be treated with care by her beloved ones. She is juggling between work, studies and social life. Maintaining a relationship and putting effort is one of the hardest things for her. But you know what? She tried her best. But people tend to ignore her efforts and capabilities on everything and she gets tired of trying. Her other half ignored her the whole day. Focusing on his passion, work and friends. She is missing him so much but she couldn't do anything. She only wanted attention and a little bit of time. She demanded a moral support that she couldn't get from anyone from the time being. Putting efforts & seeing all your efforts goes to waste is one of the hardest things to see. People around her have taken her for granted. She is worrying how to make more ...